End of the Year

Trying to do some reflecting over the past year and as I weed through all the struggles, frustrations, surprises, pain, laughter, and mistakes, I really want to strip it down to...What is God trying to teach me? What was He trying to teach me this year (it was not my best ever) and I really want to 'get it'...whatever He is trying to show me. I think I've figured it out..I could be wrong, that's been known to happen, but as I was listening to this song today it hit me. He is ALL I need....not just part or some but ALL, everything. He completely satisfies.
I have spent many of the last 32 years trying everything you can think of, except God. At times, I tried some things, PLUS God....but never JUST God.. Last night, I was laying in bed feeling strangely content, at peace, satisfied. If you looked at the circumstances surrounding my life right now, from a worldy perspective, there really is no reason for me to feel that way. I should feel stressed, hurried, worried, sad, and lonely. But what I felt was peace. True peace that I know with everything in me can only come from HIM. I felt like God was trying to tell me, This is what I want to give you...just stop looking everywhere else.
So....I've come to the conclusion that this year He has been trying to teach me that He is all I need. And so....my response for 2010 is to, um, well try this out....quit looking to anything and everything BUT Him. My Savior, my true Friend, my Comforter, my Lover, my Hiding Place, my strength when I have none, my hope, my Father who loves me unconditionally. I have listened to this song again and again, and I'm praying that this will be the cry of my heart for 2010.


I left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak, it won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my head to pray
Got every reason to be here again
Father's heart that draws me in
All my eyes want to see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You......All I need is You, Lord, is YOU, Lord
All I need is You....All I need is You, Lord, is YOU

One more day and it's not the same
Your Spirit causes my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Savior once again
Where'd my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I NEED IS YOU......All I NEED IS YOU!!!!!!

You hold the universe....
You hold everyone on earth...


I NEED You
I WANT You
I CHOOSE You

All I Need is You.

CSL!!! You gotta be there!!!!!

CHRISTMAS CROSS STREET LIVE tomorrow night!!
Dinner at 5, Show at 5:30
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more than conquerors

we are more than conquerors...great sermon that reminded me today that life is not pain free but we can still be victorious because we are His child. He loves us so much no matter what we think the circumstances in our life are telling us! Listen when you get a chance......
http://www.newlifechurch.org/sermons/sermons.jsp?mediaid=1951

He IS enough

Read this blog from Matt Chandler if you haven't already. I bawled...not because I felt sorry for him or his family but because I am envious of what he has. Oh how I want the cry of my heart to be more like this...forgive me Lord for choosing ANYTHING over you. It is never worth it.


http://hv.thevillagechurch.net/blog/hvpastor/

Louie blog

Great blog from one of my favs....Louie Giglio
This one really tugged at my heart, God works through our pain and I just want to be that type of obedient to Him so that I can see Him work and see Him do great things for His glory.

http://268generation.com/blog/2009/11/so-so-grateful/

A tight grip

What is God teaching me right now? Or really a better way to put it is what am I wrestling with Him about, fighting with Him about, and being so stubborn about?...With most things in my life, when God said no, and especially if it was something I already had a grip on, I just gripped even tighter. The painful and at the same time cool thing that God always did was pry it, rip it, out of my hands!! Wow, did it hurt most of the time...ok, who am I kidding, it always hurt. It was painful because it was something I wanted and something I really thought I needed at the time. What is cool about it looking back is that God saved me....saved me from myself, from that bad choice, from even worse consequences that I could have suffered. In His gracious and merciful heart, He chose to rip it out where it would hurt for now, but then I could heal, move on, and experience His will for me and His blessings.
SO....what is really showing up these past couple of weeks are things that God is pointing at and going...Uh, you need to get rid of this now....most of them are things I already have a grip on. So what do I do? Do I learn from past mistakes and just hand it over? Or do I start to tense my fingers and hold on with all that I've got?...
Jesus said many times in the Bible that if we truly love Him we will obey His commands....if we truly love Him, we will give up everything. If we truly love Him we will follow Him and throw out, and get rid of, anything that is not of Him. So maybe the real question should be, Do I truly love Him??
I am thankful for what He is teaching me...I am thankful that He has not given up on me, and I'm praying today that I will open my hands and give to Him freely WHATEVER He asks for. And then, I will wait, and expect great things, because He IS God, and I do truly love Him with all that is in me.
What are you holding on to today????

one sweet moment

I was just serving my daughter dinner...she touched my leg and said, "You are a good mama."
I kissed her and we giggled together. Those are the moments I live for....